still in search…

Posted: February 1, 2017 in Uncategorized

still in search

still in search of something in life that had been eluding me forever; something that can fill the void that is keeping me awake at night for no reason at all; something that would make me feel that I’m home; something that  gives me the feeling that I’m on my way to fulfilling my life’s purpose.



I left behind a piece of my heart
a real big piece of it, in your gentle care
I trust you father to care for it like only you can do

Forgive my weakness, for I can’t stop worrying about it
Even when I know for sure, you are there to take care

So currently Krishna is flooding parts of Karnataka while Kaveri basin is dry and there is a huge dispute running between Karnataka and Tamil nadu  in regards to Kaveri water.

Many such occurrences keep repeating in India, where some parts are in floods and some parts are in drought. Interlinking rivers is a grand plan that can solve this problem.

Currently there is Telugu Ganga project that connects Krishna to Pennar, and eventually supplies some water to Tamil Nadu. I was wondering if it is possible to send flooding Krishna waters to Tamil Nadu instead of scarce Kaveri water. I looked for maps to see if there is interlinking somewhere that will allow this Telugu Ganga water to eventually reach Kaveri basin in Tamil Nadu. I don’t have much time in my hands so I had to put an end to my search before I can accurately reach a conclusion on this. I think there might be some possible way. Telugu Ganga water reaches up to Poondi reservoir in Tamil Nadu. Kaveri Basin seems close enough to the flows from this reservoir. I also saw some potential links between this and other dams on cauvery in Tamil Nadu. So it might be possible.

So, a possible compromise to handle current Cauvery crisis could be for Karnataka to release more Krishna water into Andhra pradesh. Andhra can in turn release this water to Tamil Nadu through Telugu Ganga. It is a crazy thought, but might be worth thinking out of the box in these hard times.

PS: I found interesting things while I was conducting this search on Cauvery flow and Telugu Ganga flow. Do you know that there is a Water Wiki detailing all water flows, river basins and projects in India?

Tell me how to be brave

Posted: June 23, 2016 in life
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I want to be brave. Tell me how to be brave” asked my darling son today before leaving for his school. I didn’t have an answer. As my eyes welled up, I asked if he is scared of anything in particular.”No, I am brave. I am not scared of anything” came back his reply.

I don’t want to forget this incident, and the feelings he was fighting as he reluctantly agreed to attend school today to make me happy. New school, new teacher, new classmates – I can understand how overwhelmed he is with all this. “There are too many people in the class” he declared on his second day at the new school. For a three year old who doesn’t like noise, it is not easy to be in a class of twenty strangers for the first time. He is fighting his battles bravely. I wish it doesn’t have to be this way, I wish we could stop demanding so much from our little ones.

Many times I am overwhelmed at the enormous responsibility parents have in helping their kids reach their full potential. Our fears push us to force the tiny toddlers to do what the world expects of them. Because we are not brave, and we are scared of the world, and the future, we are asking our little ones to be brave and face the world before they are ready; forcing them to bear burdens their little hearts shouldn’t have to.

I hope I will find in me the strength and wisdom to guide, and guard my son as he ventures into the world bravely. Time and again he makes me realize how blessed we are. Hope we can preserve his precious childhood from the harsh demands of this cruelty we call education.


The important bits are at the end: If you believe someone is harming you on purpose, it hurts more. There is discussion of turning pain into pleasure : presenter quotes pleasure of riding a roller coaster as an example; I am not sure if adrenaline is also responsible for the pleasure here, if only partly. Eating chillies is also an example of turning pain into pleasure.

Following excerpt is from Vignana Bhairava Tantra, an ancient Hindu text. This particular translation and explanation is by master Osho. I was reminded of this when I was watching the video; the parallels and similar conclusions are uncanny. How are we feeling pleasure from an experience that should have resulted in pain? The answer is simple: pain and pleasure are within us, and we have the control to feel one or the other irrespective of the external situation.

Whenever there is joy, you feel that it is coming from without. You have met a friend: of course, it
appears that the joy is coming from your friend, from seeing him. That is not the actual case. The
joy is always within you. The friend has just become a situation. The friend has helped it to come
out, has helped you to see that it is there. And this is not only with joy, but with everything: with
anger, with sadness, with misery, with happiness, with everything, it is so. Others are only situations
in which things that are hidden in you are expressed. They are not causes; they are not causing
something in you. Whatsoever is happening, is happening TO YOU. It has always been there; it
is only that meeting with this friend has become a situation in which whatsoever was hidden has
come out in the open – has come out. From the hidden sources it has become apparent, manifest.
Whenever this happens remain centered in the inner feeling, and then you will have a different
attitude about everything in life.
Even with negative emotions, do this. When you are angry, do not be centered on the person who
has aroused it. Let him be on the periphery. You just become anger. Feel anger in its totality; allow it
to happen within. Don’t rationalize; don’t say that this man has created it. Do not condemn the man.
He has just become the situation. And feel grateful towards him that he has helped something which
was hidden to come into the open. He has hit you somewhere, and a wound was there hidden. Now
you know it, so become the wound.
With negative or positive, with any emotion, use this, and there will be a great change in you. If
the emotion is negative, you will be freed of it by being aware that it is within you. If the emotion is
positive, you will become the emotion itself. If it is joy, you will become joy. If it is anger, the anger
will dissolve.
And this is the difference between negative and positive emotions: if you become aware of a certain
emotion, and by your becoming aware the emotion dissolves, it is negative. If by your becoming
aware of a certain emotion you then become the emotion, if the emotion then spreads and becomes
your being, it is positive. Awareness works differently in both cases. If it is a poisonous emotion,
you are relieved of it through awareness. If it is good, blissful, ecstatic, you become one with it.
Awareness deepens it.

Ancient Hindu philosophers have mastered the internal, and their insight into human mind is amazing.

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I don’t know why I had put the term ‘introvert ‘ in the title of this blog. Well, I am a certified introvert but that is beside the point. I certainly didn’t have plans to write about introversion. I must have just typed in what came to mind when I was creating it. There were quite a few people who landed on this blog searching for the term ‘introvert’. I wondered if I was making false advertising, but didn’t think much about it. However a few days ago, Google had listed one of the entries in this blog in response to a search query that was rather disturbing. Someone was searching for ‘introvert’ in combination with a very depressing word. Since that particular word happened to appear in the title of one of the posts, Google seemed to have dished up that page. Unless it was someone researching that particular aspect in connection with introverts, that person was under severe depression, and seems being an introvert had something to do with it. I hope it was the former that is the case here, and even if it is the latter, I hope that person had the good sense to talk to someone about it. BTW, why am I avoiding the mention of that search term here? The very purpose of this post is to tell the fact that being an introvert is nothing to worry about. I think it makes sense to mention that search term here so that if anyone else searches for that combination of words, they can potentially land here, and hopefully I can rub off some positive thinking onto them. So here goes; that person was searching for ‘introvert suicide’. It seems there is nothing that I could do except hoping that whoever that person was, didn’t mean to do anything foolish.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with being an introvert. It’s a perfectly normal personality trait, and it comes with its own strengths. Roughly half of the people on this planet are introverts. If introverts are marginalized in our society, that is not because they are of less value to society. It is just that voices of those who speak, even if they have no value to add to the conversation, are the voices that are heard. And guess what, it is the extroverts that make all the noise in the world. So, naturally extroverts rule the roost, and it is not their fault either. From my own experience, I can tell you there is absolutely nothing to worry if you are an introvert.

[from a 2 year old draft]

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Defacements continue

Posted: March 22, 2015 in Uncategorized

In my last post , I mentioned about a barbaric incident where centuries old idol of beautiful Vishnu was defaced. Today I saw two Ganesha idols in Shilparamam; both idols were defaced completely. These were made of metal. It must have taken someone  quite an effort to deface these metal idols. Just look into the western sky right across these idols in Shilpa Sandhya Vedika, and you would realize who was behind this defacement.

There are so many visitors, most of them oblivious to what is happening. Indians don’t have the slightest idea about the kind of threats they are under. They are being squeezed out of their own country, and they have no clue. It seems it would be too late before the majority of them realize what is being done to them. Whatever is happening to Yezidis in Iraq, the same fate is awaiting the Indians that adhere to the traditions of this ancient land. If I think practically, I don’t have any hope that Hindus can avoid the fate of Yezidis. They are running towards that fate blissfully in all their ignorance.

The temple is named Chatur-bhuja, that of the four-armed god. Who was reponsible for the (literal) defacement of the statue is not known to me. – See more at: