My heart is so stubborn, it won’t listen to my caution

My heart is so stubborn, it won’t listen to my caution
It is racing for you without any preparation
says you are the most beautiful thing in the whole creation.

how do I convince myself that you are so unattainable?
Oh my angel, why are you being so cruel?
Why did you come calling on me with all your charms,
when you are not even going to give me a chance?

How do I control the inconsolable sorrow of my pounding heart?
You keep laughing while all my life is falling apart
Sleep has deserted me ever since your dancing eyes met mine
All my senses took a long leave of absence on the day we met
My brain has put itself in a comatose state the moment it saw that long braid of yours

Why does my stupid heart think you are so familiar?
why did you make all those fake promises, you liar?
you said you would always be there for me with your open arms and a cheerful smile.

Where have you disappeared when I need your patient ears?
how could you break our bonds of all those years?
won’t you come at least to wipe my tears?
my tender heart is being sliced with a million spears,
Yet I like this blissful pain; how stupid is this heart of mine,
to lust after the love of thine!
That silly insect which flies right into the fire,
is laughing at the futility of my desire!

[To that Kuchipudi dancer whose eyes could express every emotion that humanity had ever known]

Updated: Added the last two lines of the poem